peaceful

There is nothing more peaceful than my porch. The sounds, the smells, the beautiful scenery- it is balm to the soul.

I have not trusted myself to write for awhile. I'm struggling this summer. Feeling a little overwhelmed about how to get everything done, organized, cleaned, how to shoulder all the responsibilities.

I have, so called, friends who have been very judgmental lately and I don't need that. I'm tired and I'm lonely even though I am surrounded by family and friends.

I'm catching up on my Bible reading and constantly reminded that the one who I was supposed to be reading with on this plan gave up on  me. Not a good feeling. But I have been catching up at my own pace and trying to not to let that bother me. But it does. I'm tired of being acting disappointed every time I fail. Or I forget. Lend a hand people. Have a heart and some compassion. Life is hard and we need encouragement not judgement or disappointed looks.

So I've been looking for something uplifting to watch on television/netflicks to help me relax. And I've noticed, there is nothing relaxing on television. Crime, apocalyptic, and drama that's what's on television.

Bub got 3rd place in the adult division of the FLW circuit. That's a good showing. A paying slot.
http://www.flwoutdoors.com/bassfishing/bfl/tournament/2014/7156/lake-st-clair-coangler-results/?dpl=1&all=1&sr=1&rpp=50&&sort=pl

sprint

Summer is sprinting by. I am doing things and getting things done but I feel weird.
Boys leave Sat morning and I going to scrap hopefully Sat-Sun with the dogs we will see how that works.

meal plan: water, green smoothies, eggs, nuts
walk the dogs, work out print- Jessica videos,

Article to share:
Reading: Wild by Cheryl Strayed
Sipping: Caramel macchiato

Love Nest

Sunday lounging...
Sam's last day with us here at the Love Nest. We celebrated by watching Analyze This, having a green smoothie, and scrapbook organizing. It was quite good.
Yesterday Marina had to go in for emergency tooth/mouth surgery yesterday and it was sad. So glad she is ok.

Perfect

The perfect day...
reading daily affirmations wall and pinterest everyday
coffee on the porch

Got moving on the house today...mirrors, glass, toilets, dust

Judgement and Grace keep popping up in my mind lately.
I'm seeing people not give grace to others but just judgement or the refusal to be friendly. Why? It has to take more negative energy to act that way. I want to strive to be friendly even with strangers. I think sometimes this appears two faced because I've opened up to close friends about my frustration with certain people just to then turn around and be friendly. Therefore I vow to stop cutting on people behind their backs, stop participating in the negative talk. I need to live by the adage that if you wouldn't say it in front of them don't say it behind them. No one wants to be talked about negatively behind their back. 

Porch Perfection

I forget in the winter how much I enjoy the porch and spending my mornings, afternoons and evenings here. I have plenty of things I can do from right here. In my next life I'm working from home and I will work on my porch! The sounds are incredible all day long. The crickets that I remembered being out at night are actually out all day.

So the person from the unfortunate post continues to perplex me.
I hate feeling as though I've disappointed someone but in this case I do not feel at fault. I'm tired. I don't need one more person defining how I should behave. At a recent gathering she was standoffish and I was uncomfortable. I'm tired of it quite frankly. I don't like feeling like someone thinks I'm acting inappropriately. I want to be around those who help my being.

I don't feel the need to be around people who are judging me or trying to get me to be the person they want me to be. I think that's because I am ok with who I am. I don't need someone else's approval. I don't like the feeling that gets me in the pit of my stomach when I'm around judgmental, negative people. 

Road Trip

We left around 6pm on Friday and traveled through Louisville, Nashville

We stayed on the south side of Birminghm. We made it to the Florida line by 1:00.

Yolanda says we are difficult, snooty travelers. I don't agree. You just need to know the truths...

Eat the free breakfast, you never know when we'll eat again. 

The car will be traveling quickly and erratically. 

Preventative pee when given the chance. 

If we are going out to shop or just to pick something up-it might b awhile. 

We won't beg you to go- we don't care. 

You will pay your own way. We work for our money. We are not looking for sugar daddies. 

Lazy Saturday

With the arrival of Sam I am guaranteed to stay home for a weekish. I love it!
We watched Finding Normal on Netflicks a few nights ago and it was a pleasant surprise. Really good.
I love love love my porch. I plan to spend most of my summer right here.
Porch Activities:
Catch up on devotional reading
Magazines